Good things still ☺ I’ve long thought that we would not be able to appreciate happiness if we didn’t have unhappiness to compare it with and often,in our negative world, we miss the positive. With these thoughts in mind I began to make a note of those happy moments. I used a half-size notelet pad […]Read More What’s Occurring?
Yesterday was Luke’s 34th birthday. I count the birth days but Luke doesn’t age beyond 30. Yesterday was the worst since he died. The last three years, the days before were not good but once the day arrived, it passed with sadness but without plunging headlong into overwhelming grief. Not so this year. The days […]Read More Banal platitudes
I don’t know if you are familiar with lametta, a sort of Christmas tinsel? Mine comes out every year and is thrown liberally on the Christmas tree as the final decoration. Well, not thrown because as my daughter will tell anyone who is wiiling to listen I am OCD about where the decorations are placed […]Read More Lametta
It is the fourth Christmas and New Year with out Luke, not only that, it’s a new decade without him here to enter it with us. I wonder if I will still be around at the beginning of a second decade (2030) without him? It is a possibility. It is six Christmas ago, 2014 since […]Read More 2020 a New Year with out you.
Now that I am so heavily involved with Suicide Prevention I find the words, “My son took his own life” followed by “how ever much time has elapsed,” slip out of my mouth fairly easily, without touching the sides, really. Certainly not touching any of the painful parts of my being that are tucked away for […]Read More Not my boy!!!
There have been some dark days for my family since I last wrote for this blog. In many ways reminiscent of those months before Luke died. Life events for members of the family which, have threatened their existence and personal wellbeing. All of which will not be an easy fix. I worry for them and […]Read More Can you all clear off NOW 😉
When Luke was born, for three years I thought that one child was enough. When our second boy arrived, for two years I thought two children were enough. At the age of forty when our third child, a girl, was born I almost immediately thought about having another child but after careful consideration realised three […]Read More Two is not enough!
The French say it so much better..tu me manques – you are missing from me! It is 25872 hours since you have been missing from me Luke. I have not thought of you every single hour that you have been gone, nevertheless, I have felt that you have gone in the very core of my […]Read More Tu me manues
The world outside becomes a scary place when you are broken and no longer sure of who you are anymore. Once away from the comfort and security of home – anything can happen and at first frequently did. Each of us has a tale to tell as we fled back home wondering, ‘How come I […]Read More Scary Place
When Luke moved back home with us to our two bedroom lodge in early December 2015 we were sorely short of space for his belongings. He was not a hoarder and after several accommodation moves and an adventure of working in Cyprus, he had very few possessions. He like quality items but was not overly […]Read More Renovation